Sometimes I feel like a horrible person. In all honesty, I'm not, I'm well aware that I'm not, but sometimes, well, I just
feel like it.
Some of my not-so-fine qualities? I can be a little dramatic, with a bit of a temper. Once you've broken my trust, it's nearly impossible to gain it back. I can hold a grudge like no one's business and I'm really quick to just write people off once they've wronged me. Not to mention, I get bored really easily, and I have the work ethic of a bag of rocks. I have flaws. Lots of them. But it's okay, because I have a lot of really great qualities, too.
So how does this tie into "feeling especially thankful"?
Well, because for a long, long time, I felt like I couldn't really trust or confide in anyone, not even my own family. I always thought that I had to wear some sort of "I'm Perfect Mask" in order for people to really accept me. But I've finally realized that some people won't turn their backs or betray your trust, no matter what. It's been a long, hard journey getting to that place, but here I am, and it feels so, so good to know that there are people in my life who accept me for exactly who I am.
I've never been the type to need (or want) a big group of people in my life. To me, more people has always seemed to equal more drama, of which I do not need. This year has been especially hard for me, but there are two people who have been a sounding board and had my back, no matter what. They are the most trustworthy, honest, non-judgmental people I know, and I'm
so thankful to have them in my life.
Mike, fiance extraordinaire: I know I'm biased, but my fiance just might be the most amazing man in the whole wide world. We've known eachother for 12 years and I still look at him and swoon (uhm, how could you not, do you see those eyes?!). He is my perfect balance. He loves and accepts every single part of me, and I honestly could not ask for more in a partner. When I met him at 11, I was completely infatuated. Even at such a young age, I knew that he was something special, and boy was I right!
Teresa, my not-at-all-evil stepmother (pictured right): Holy cow. I don't know what I did to get so lucky in the step-mom department, but I'm glad I did. I can't speak highly enough of her. There is no one on this earth that I feel more comfortable confiding in, and whose advice I trust more, and that's a tall order for someone who isn't technically a "blood relative". If there were more people in the world like my step-mom, the world would be a much better place.
Thank you, Mike and Teresa, for being such amazing people. I can't tell you how much I love and appreciate both of you! My life would be exponentially less awesome without the two of you in it!
I would also like to add that I'm thankful for my kick-ass dad, my amazingly generous mom, my awesome aunt Rhonda, my hilarious and irreplacable friend Suzie, and my 3 adorable pups, Sophie, Spade, and Scout. You all have made my year one to remember!
Who are you most thankful for this year?
