Getting Schooled.

Let me tell you, this whole "blogging everyday" thing is REALLY hard!

Yesterday morning I saw The Black Swan, then basically spent all day grocery shopping and cooking. Do you know how hard it is to find fontina, proscuitto, crab legs, and passion fruit in the same store? Apparently it's impossible.

A trip to Target, Whole Foods, Sweetbay and $100 later, I finally made it back home in time to start cooking for Mike and a few friends we had over. It was a long day, to say the least. Alas, here we are, with yesterday's #reverb10 prompt:

December 17 – Lesson Learned What was the best thing you learned about yourself this past year? And how will you apply that lesson going forward?

The best thing I learned about myself this year is that I'm pretty tough. I never thought of myself as tough, but I am. I stand up for myself and I don't take no shit. I can pick myself up in the face of adversity. I know this because this year, I have, multiple times. I'm also strong enough to know when I need to ask for help because I can't do it all myself.

I've also learned that I'm not perfect. Well, okay, I know that I've never been perfect, but I'm learning to stop reaching for that unattainable goal of perfection. Do I want to be great and do the best I can? Of course. But I'm working really hard to remind myself that I can't be perfect. It gives me crippling anxiety, my therapist said so.

Going forward, I will be confident in knowing that I'm a pretty amazing person. I can stand on my own two feet and I don't need to be loved, or even liked, by everyone because I like myself. Sure, I'm not perfect, I make mistakes, I will continue to make mistakes, but that's okay. I will make no apologies for my decisions because I make them for me and no one else. And for those who have problems with my decisions, well, they can shove it.

What have you learned about yourself this year?